...
I don't know what to write .
I'm single now..
I'm very lazy to change my profilage .
Because I still love you deeply .
Why am I always so faithful ?
I don't know ...
Nevermind .
Just let it be .
Me , stomach keep cramping non-stop .
Pain like hell .
But , I didn't say a single word to you about that anymore .
When I text you and you replied .
I'm super happy .
But , when you didn't reply .
I'm moody .
Bye..
Dont wish to write on le ..

8 days of crying is it a lot ?
Continued 8 days de ...
Do you still love me ?
I wish the answer is ..Yes , I still do ..a lot..
Do you want to patch ?
I wish the answer is ..Yes , I want it a lot .
I miss you , do you ?
Yess...I hope that the answer .
T.T
I dont know why when always I'm listening to song ,
reminds me of you .
Especially ,
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade ,
Marry You by Bruno Mars ,
Lastly ,
Love the way you lie (Part 2) by Rihanna .
Those song is the song you used to sang it to me .
Only some parts...
Not whole song..:'(
Hmm, And Wedding Dress by Taeyang .
You always played Wedding Dress by Taeyang on piano .
It's is so lovely ...:'(
No more chance to get to hear you play le ?
Everytime still remember that you always come and wait for me during me having badminton .
You would wait for me .
Even waiting for me to finish my lesson .
Take care of me .
When I'm having period , you know that I can't drink cold drinks .
You would control me .
Yeah , what I do ?
Always pretend I want drinkkkk>.<
But ended up , I listened to you...
I want be your good girl .
You love me so much , don't want see you get hurted when I'm in pain ,
Then you blame yourself by saying not taking good care of me
Because didn't control well and seeing me pain .
Even I didn't pretend I want drink , sometimes really want drink , but you say no...
Then I give you the pretend angry face , in a cute way ...
You will think awhile ..then give me that innocent cute face..say no again...
Then I pretend be angry..*hpmh!* then you will beg me and say please asking me to bear with a few days..
Oh , yeah .
Then of course I listened lo :/
I pretend to want drink sometimes just to get your attention .
Really , I don't know why I do that for .
But , I guess it's really wrong .
Is it ?
Haish...:'(
I really really miss you a lot and need you back by my side .
I now only listened to you most .
Being a Obident girl when you say what I do .
But of course you ask me to hate you and forget you ,
I will never listen to you...T.T
I still love you a lot :(
What ?
Last Sunday I said that I don't want eat ,
Then you told me that you will accompany don't eat .
I can don't eat for days leh , you can ?
I don't think so .
But I think I know why you said that ,
you know i will heart pain ,
then will eat ba...
if is like this..you very stupid lehh...
I can lie to you say I eat already what...:/
But that day Sunday ( 15052011 ) ,
I told you that I want go your house there find you ,
you don't let , still lie to me say you like other girl le...
Then my heart is very pain..T.T
But , I cry out my heart while talking in phone with ChongRu ...
Beg him to accompany me go to your place .
Then I didn't tell you I'm going over ...
On the way going over , I keep text you and asked you whether you eat already a not...
You haven't .
Then I'm not really happy to know you haven't eat la..:/
Then I go take my own money and go buy macdonald over for you..
then I somehow lost my way while walking from Jurong East MRT to your blk...:/
luckily ChongRu go before , and know where is it...
:X I'm sotong lai de .
Then that ChongRu keep scold me 'stupid' .
Haish , yeah ..I'm stupid...
Sorry lo...
When reach le , I call your house and asked you come down to your void deck .
you asked me why...I didn't tell you and asked you to just come down .
Haish..that day I'm so glad that I still can hug you tight :( just that you didnt really hug back le .
.....
I really dont know what to say le uh...
you still want to leave when you say that I still treat you so good ...

Hey .
I really really hope that you can come back .
You're my only .
Nobody can replace you .
Nobody can replace you in my heart .
As I told you before ,
My heart only accept one person .
Which is you .
I'm waiting for you to be awake .
Where's my previous that lovely Hubby ; lovely sotong baby . ?
Haish .
Thinking , when are you coming back .
I need you .
I love you .
I miss you .
I'm desperate for you .
I'm desperate for your voice .
I want you .
You're my hubby .
When you gonna come back ?
How I wish that time can rewind .
How I wish that what you told me about liking a sec one girl is a lie .
Is it ?
I don't know .
I'm tired of crying le .
I failed to be a girlfriend .
I'm not perfect enough .
loser .

We had broke up on Saturday le ....
I should be strong now , nobody take care le .
So , I should be good girl now .
Got back freedom .
But I don't used to this feelings .
I haven't be a single for more than half a year le .
Now I'm once again became back a single ...
I broke record le lo ...
Three stead straight in a row :/
But I love the last one the most !

Yesterday was a scary day .
Chong Ru and Clarissa almost break .
Luckily now they ok already .
Happy for them .
Yesterday I went to Yio Chu Kang , with Jin hui and his mummy and his ahyi .
There quite boring uh .
I rather go tian hui and tian guo .
Or even shing shao nian .
Fo Tang ~
Hehe .
Anyway , we cancelled away the picnic we going to have today le .
Wa , I Was shocked .
Now everyday also come update my blog .
My blog had been rotten very long already .
So , actually I came to see my blog again to make sure it not dead .
Haha .
Hmm , actually now nothing to type already leh .
How bout today I end here uh .
Bye Bye .
Going to movie with baby <3
He right beside now only .
I don't want let him read now :$
He want to read go back then read , Hehe .
<3
Love Andy Ng Jin Hui <3

Morning~
Hmm , now mummy should be at genting casino .
Gambling . :(
Haiz , I don't like people gamble .
But long long once nevermind .
Like without money de .
Or maybe new year ba .
But I think for me I don't want gamble .
I know that time I step the wrong path .
In primary school , gamble a bit with my friends .
Then after that , got one day , they want gamble again .
I tell them I not free .
That time is Thursday .
They still went to play , but I didn't followed , I was with Eunice And Brenda .
I with Eunice were actually going over to Brenda's thats why I told them that I'm not free ~.~
Then but that day , they got caught by the teachers .
Then the guys kena caning .
The Girls kena punish to wash toliet , for around three weeks .
Or is one week .
I forgot .
Anyway , later at night I going don't know where de temple with Baby and his's mummy .
Got a bit scare scare , cause he said like maybe have his's cousins too .
Hey!
Today is Mother's Day !
Happy Mother's Day to every mother in this world !
Hope you all got a great day today .
For my own mother , she already now is a , not with us uh .
She went to genting .
LOL !
Yesterday night go de :)
Anyway , I have nothing much to type already .
And monday , going picnic with Clarissa , Clarissa's BiBi & my Baby <3 no is HUBBY <3<3
Actually I got weird feeling about my baby
He like give me the feeling like don't like me already :'(

What an hot morning ..
I didn't get to sleep well throughout the whole night .
Haiz , now finally can sleep le then my er Jie so noisy .
She don't want sleep already...
Then let me sleep ma :(
I later still got tuition ..
Scared later in tuition no energy and very sleepy..
I don't know should I go mummy room sleep with her now .
Because there would be more quite and windy if mummy haven't wake up .
Haiz , I rather go Jia En ' house sleep :'(
There the three pigs very late then wake up de .
Three pig cousin !
Haha !
Always is they need go out le , I wake them up de .
:D
:/
Now I think I still okay hor .
Anyway , morning baby <3
*muackz*
I wish that I can have him sleeping beside of me .
So that even it is noisy I still can sleep..
In his hug ma :$
*blushy~*
Hehe:)
I miss him wor T^T
He now at home just wake up ba ?
Never reply me already :/
Anyway , I want sleep now .
But I can't .
Haha .
I think that I'm totally awake already .
Can't sleep le .
Just feel a bit not right .
Like I going to be sick soon ~.~
*yawn~~*
okay :/
I'm still sleepy , just can't sleep :X
Haha :(
Bye ~
Later night maybe then I post again :/
Yesterday I forgot to post
Hehe :X
Anyway , today mummy later going to genting (Malaysia) le .
I miss going there T^T .
Anyway , is miss the weather there and games and the chocolates only .
Bye ~
Love Andy <3
Love Ng <3
Love Jin <3
Love Hui <3
Hehe :)

Hellos !
Today I very tired ah ~
Just now right after my Physics paper .
I went to gek poh macdonald to have breakfast with Eliora & Andrea .
I went there with two reasons .
First is to Eat !
Second is to wait for my baby until 12 PM
That is so long ~.~
Because my paper ends at 9.15 am
His ended at 12PM .
That's counted long >.<
Anyway , Andrea asked me , if next time my baby go ITE already .
Don't I scared Jin Hui would likes other girl or be with others ?
I replied to her question say ......
" *mood sad and emo* I Have No Choice if really that would happened..I can't control his heart to make him love who . "
Plus , is I unlucky not same age as him :(
Anyway , He just now did ask me whether do we need a break .
My answer come to my heart straight away after begging him to say what he hiding from me !
My answer was " NOO ! "
But I didn't react until like this !
But end up I cry :(
He also cry .
But after that we okay and get to be more closer <3
Without Him , I'm not complete :(
But with Him that missing puzzle piece , I'm complete .
Without Him , I don't know how to live .
Without Him , I'm not me .
Without Him , I can die already :'(
He Are Much More Important Than Everything I Had .
He is just like my life !
I actually can't live without him around me :( :/
Now I'm very tired already >.<
Goodnight !
Time now is 10:15 pm :/
Already tired like shit !
Muackz !
I Love Andy Lots !

Hellos !
Today I very tired ah ~
Just now right after my Physics paper .
I went to gek poh macdonald to have breakfast with Eliora & Andrea .
I went there with two reasons .
First is to Eat !
Second is to wait for my baby until 12 PM
That is so long ~.~
Because my paper ends at 9.15 am
His ended at 12PM .
That's counted long >.<
Anyway , Andrea asked me , if next time my baby go ITE already .
Don't I scared Jin Hui would likes other girl or be with others ?
I replied to her question say ......
" *mood sad and emo* I Have No Choice if really that would happened..I can't control his heart to make him love who . "
Plus , is I unlucky not same age as him :(
Anyway , He just now did ask me whether do we need a break .
My answer come to my heart straight away after begging him to say what he hiding from me !
My answer was " NOO ! "
But I didn't react until like this !
But end up I cry :(
He also cry .
But after that we okay and get to be more closer <3
Without Him , I'm not complete :(
But with Him that missing puzzle piece , I'm complete .
Without Him , I don't know how to live .
Without Him , I'm not me .
Without Him , I can die already :'(
He Are Much More Important Than Everything I Had .
He is just like my life !
I actually can't live without him around me :( :/
Now I'm very tired already >.<
Goodnight !
Time now is 10:15 pm :/
Already tired like shit !
Muackz !
I Love Andy Lots !

Hello :(
Back to update my blog again :/
Now mood actually not very good .
It's good la , just that sad sad , sobbing >.<
Miss My Baby Leh .
Miss his hug :(
Can sleep with him de lo :( just now :( ( just lie side by side only ! ) not sex >.<
Hmm , I don't know why so fast miss him already .
I guess he now thinking of other things .
In his mind now , should not be me .
Should be stressing about Mathematics :(
Haiz , poor thing .
Seeing him so stress I also stress :(
I don't know why I can be so relax ~
Anyway , I forget what am I gonna have tomorrow .
Hope it's won't be literature hor :(
Like it's would be difficult like this .
Actually I also kind of miss my Jies .
Le Ying jiejie and Tiara jiejie :(
Long time never see Le Ying le :(
I feel like playing badminton with her !
Tiara jiejie I never met her before .
We get to know each other through FACEBOOK .
Through my Xiao Tian Tian , Eunice Ong Zhen Yee la .
I miss baby most now de la !
That sotong Andy Ng Jin Hui !
Woo ~
Just now finally met one of his brother !
Amos !
Amos Ng Jin Hao !
Haha .
Hope can faster get to know them better :(
Because i don't want friends to help anymore !
Friends can't be trusted !
Betrayers !
But not every single one of them la .
But those won't betray mostly is backstab .
Sucking Friends I Had In Secondary School !
Haiz !
Hmm , actually I kind of miss Girls Gang too ~
My Primary School :
My gang's leader : Sheena : muackz , orrrr ~
My Bestfriend : Eunice , Xiao Tian Tian ~
My " leader " ( she is one , but she dont want to ) : Ming Ying , Joker !
My Closefriend : Brenda , Mu Lao Hu . >.<
My Goodfriend : Gina , bad mouthed ! >.<
My Bestfriend : Yi Hui , siao za bo ! :3 not in gang
My Bestfriend : Han Ni , <3 !
My Secondary School :
My Closefriend : Zi Hui , Hyper ~
My Closefriend : Bei Bei , Mummy <3 ~
My Closefriend : Eliora , Daddy <3 ~
My Goodfriend : Magdeline , flirter ! >.< <3
My Friend ( not very like her ) : Andrea , Fuvking Flirter ! Bitch ! Friends Snatcher !
:(
You Can See :( I don't have a Bestfriend in secondary :(
Zi Hui used to be the Best Friend :(
Andrea snatch away :'(
Now I don't even really shared secret with her .
I Miss Primary School Friends!
Oh , Ya !
I Forgotten About My Baby , He is my only good one that I shared secret with him !
My Precious : Andy Ng Jin Hui , Baby , Hubby <3 ~~
My Precious : Vanessa Lee , Honey <3
My Precious : Cecilia Ng , Bimbo <3 " Boyfriend " ? <3
I miss you baby :(
I love you <3
Bye ~




The End ~

Hello , sorry .
I very long never post le .
Busying with my baby la :$
Tomorrow is my three monthsary with him !
Hope he is right beside of me now :(
Too bad he not .
Hmm , waiting for him to wake up now .
What time then he will be awake uh ?
Anyway , maybe later I going to East Coast Park .
With Jin Hui (my baby) , Clarissa & Chong Ru (Clarissa's Baby) .
We going there to teach Clarissa how to ride bike .
I guess it would be quite find there if I can go .
It gonna be double date if I go .
Because I guess if I didnt go it would be cancelled .
Hope can go , because I don't know how how long I didn't ride bike already.
Hmm , I wish today could be 02052011!
Which is tomorrow .
It my monthsary with Andy Ng Jin Hui <3
I Miss Him A Lots !
Hope he could probably just wake up now..
Where he is now ?
His own lalaland / dreamland .
Too bad that I can't get into there .
I can still remember , 02022011.
Is the day we get attached to each other !
But that day , is also the day I broke up with Aldon Chua Jun Wei .
If you think that , that name is familiar .
LOL , dont have to think too much uh .
His name I guess appear here before .
Actually I also kind of waiting for 28082011 to faster come .
Is my baby 's Birthday .
Hmm , his first cried is on 28081995 .
Haha .
And I was , 18121997 .
Hehe .
Ya .
I was 14 .
And he is 16 .
I'm secondary two .
And he is secondary four .
This year he graduating already :(
Sad to say , this year then I get to know him .
I'm really very happy to meet a guy like him !
Because he is the guy I wanted the most !
Although the look not really my expectation .
I don mind .
Because nobody are perfect !
Neither do him .
So , he is my expectation on attitude kind .
Not really everything .
But he is faithful ba .
That is the MOST important !
And he is actually very caring and taking care of me well <3
I love him !
He actually spoiled me :/
Now if he still continued to spoiled me , I guess im gonna to grow fat fat .
Haha !
Later become pig !
I Miss Andy Ng Jin Hui a lots !
He actually had two brothers !
Big brother name , Andrew Ng Jin Rong .
Second brother name , Amos Ng Jin Hao .
And he is the youngest .
And I'm also the youngest !
He name is , Andy Ng Jin Hui ~~
Their names nice right <3
I haven't get to see them .
Actually his big brother had a girlfriend .
She is one of my facebook friend name , Yvonne Tan .
Nice name .
As my name is only , Tan Hui Shan .
Facebook as , Hui Shan .
But I give myself a christian name , which mummy let us choose it by ourself .
Which is , Serene .
So full name would be , Serene Tan Hui Shan .
Although not very nice .
But I guess I like it .
But not LOVE .
Okay , today I will stop HERE already =)
Bye-Bye!