Please don't regret after you're sure with your answer to me. Because if I leave, it's gonna be forever. I'm no longer in your tiny little heart that's only contains one.

Tempted to commit suicide.

Want to leave this world silently.
But, I would miss you.
And, meimei.
And, jiejie(s).
And, cousins.
And, "cousin" 's jokes.
....AND, LET ME NAME HER OUT<3
SIYAN <3


Baby, what's wrong with you.
Are you scared that we'll run into him.
.........

Cause I was born, to tell you I love you.
......

On the first page, of our story.
The future seem so bright.
............

还是那个我，
......

我爱他，哄哄累累....
............

I think I want to marry you.
....
If you wake up and you say you want to break up,
that's cool~~~~~
It's was fun girl.
.........


Just the way you areeeeeeeee~~~~
.....


Heart, Heart, heart, heartbreaker.
Oh, yeah~~
........


I remember years ago.
Someone told me I should take.
Cautious when it's comes to love.
I did, I did.
You were strong, and I was not.
.............

You looked so dumb right now.
Standing outside my house.
Trying to apologize.
You so ugly when you cry.
PLEASE, just cut it out...~~~
Just cut it out~~
...........

You used to be my angel.
Said I was send straight down from heaven.
........

If I leave, it's gonna forever~
.......

I HAD ENOUGH OF MY LIFE WITH ALL THESE SONGS ENTERTAINMENT TOO.
IM TRYING VERY HARD TO KEEP MYSELF ALIVE AND HAPPY. Yet, one and one more keep come and ruin my life.
I know it's a "exam" for ME^^ through my life.
But, I hated examinations!

BORING DAY
Hahahaah.
Seriously, this few days have to be with my flour baby.
named, Kelly ==
It's not fun at all you know?
But, i heard those seniors say that it's really damn fun.
I think it's shitt..
Lols.
i now in school posting; updating want.
So long never update already.
i think my blog is DEAD.
HAHAHAHA.
i still dare to say.
Muahahahaha !
I miss you ehh!!!
Just now at there saw your freakig asshole name.
Lols
i dont know what to post la
Haha
~.~
Okayy..
I don't know how to continue to my " Story " le.
HAHAHAHAS
Kay, i'm crazy.
Stop being crazy kay
boredd~~
I dont know what to update laaa


Oh ya! Today morning i meet Xueli ^^
Lols
And, one more senior eh ?
HAHAHA.
Don't who she is la.
Pay her $$ for two sketchbook for the freaking asshole ART
STUPID EEHHHHHHH!
Hahaha.
Actually i only needed one.
One more is for Roselyn Chew one -.-
I'm super boredddddd now .
Class is like so noisy la.
Nevermind.
Kay, just because of some boring post in facebook eh .
i dont want continue type liao.
TIRED .
Buh-Bye~~

Hellooo.
Tired eh. After this tiring badminton training><
Hehe.
I'm too tired to post now.
Just come back pretend update only:X
Haha!

Love is only a chapter in a guy's life. But to a girl, it's the whole book.

I wanted to delete those memories . But , not throwing away those gifts . I'm quite glad that I didn't give you anything except letters ! Or , if now you see it . Might be guilty or what ? I don't know ? I guess the letters have already been burned or thrown away by you already . I still remember , one of the letter I spent 4 and half an hours to write it to you . It's tiring to write so long and hand also very painful . But , I don't mind . Now those letters might be even tear into pieces already or even gone until don't know which part of the world already . Let that be my tiny little heart . Let you slash , tear , burn , throw and scratch it . Even lots more . I don't mind . As long as you're happy can le . I'm not happy , but , I have to . Cry got use meh ? You don't give a damn . 
I'm tried already .
Real tired of so much things around my world .
Damn it
Fuck my life .
I still have the two letters you gave me de .
I don't dare read anymore .
I know I would cry de .
It has " Love you forever ~ "
In the heartshape you drawn for me .
One piece have a beautiful rose .
Damn nice .
BABY !
I miss you .
I wanna die .
Because I guess long ago your heart already went to her ?
I don't know who the her .
It's just guess that you like other by looking and stalking you .
Don't let me know who is it .
Or she will die for sure .
It's a kind of jealousy . :'(
If I don't kill her ,
I'll kill myself .
Because like that you won't get hurt .
Because is I die also not the person you loved .
Let me die ~
带我走吧，带我去死吧~~~
I want to slit my wrist !
Eye , make me bleed again .
Make me go blind .
Pleaseeeeeeee .

Hello....
Back to update eh .
Yesterday I found something .
That I had been finding when I'm attached with you that time .
But , actually I've been stopped finding already .
Then suddenly yesterday it appear out .
It's the photo of me and you .
That time we went out with Vanessa , Victoria , Kang Lin de .
That time the both of us keep stick together .
Like cannot sperate ><
That time I keep shy shy .
:(
Now leh ?
Awkward .
I'm wondering .
Did you changed your number .
Your phone number .
Because I think I saw you changed your phone already .
:/
I miss you damn lots
I miss your voice eh .
Now you became quiet gay already .
But , I still like .
Because I love you for who you're .
I'm stalking you in Facebook everytime .
You know ?
I don't think you know .
You won't even give a damn ba .
If now you know what had happened to me .
I wonder would you go find Him and smack him up .
And scold him .
Actually I don't really want you to do that la .
But , seriously la .
If you do that I would know that you still care and love me de T^T
I know I'm stupid .
To been tricked .
I fucking hates myself .
So many people say I changed into another person already .
No longer that HuiShan anymore .
The HuiShan you love .
Not already .
I guess ?
I'm not sure eh .
I also don't understand why you like me that time .
But , if you didn't love me that time .
I mean didn't tell me or ask for stead .
I wonder how's my life now .
Wondering if I didn't fell for you .
Didn't accept you .
How would your life be
That time I know you're freaking emotional de .
Until I appear in your life .
That first day ,
You have a feel .
I did ?
I'm not sure .
Because you know right ?
That time me with Aldon .
But ,
Already not close to each other already .
Like that time gonna break with him soon le .
Guys always step into my life at the wrong time .
Because actually in message that time I chat with him .
I keep tell him about you .
Then , He said to me " CAN YOU STOP SAYING JINHUI ?! "
I was like .
What ?
Jealous that I went out with him and had fun ?
If is that case ?
Why don't you scold yourself first ?
You went out with two girls and bring one of your brother along .
Ask you brother help you lie to me .
Whole day didn't reply my message .
What ?
You think I'm having fun ?
No eh .
I was waiting for your fucking message .
I didn't receive a single .
That day was Cecilia Ng 's Birthdat party .
Since you didn't reply .
I go "enjoy" myself lo .
We at East Coast Park .
Then in the room with JinHui , Ben Neo , Joe Lee And Cecilia cousin .
I don't know all of them very well .
I saw Joe Lee and JinHui that time only...
JinHui said hi to me and I ignored him previously .
Haha ,
That day I guess I made him replaced Aldon for sometimes .
He played with me .
I snatch his iPod with him and play like fun .
But , I have my limits .
I know I have stead .
Cannot play until too what with you eh .
Then ,
At around 7...pm...
We went to the nearest beach .
At first I'm bugging you to accompany ride bike de
Then Cecilia keep like not happy that I keep bug you .
Then I stopped lo .
Then after that when go beach that time you asked me along .
I went along .
But , end up I'm with Vanessa Lee and Cecilia .
I never go with you .
Because you went in back to the room for awhile to take somethings .
Kay then .
I followed them .
I sat on the sand .
Thinking of Aldon .
I'm freaking cold that time .
Because of the sea breeze .
Then desperate for a warm hug .
I emoing there alone .
Then ,
I can't see anyone .
Except for I know Vanessa is beside of me .
Cecilia also .
I actually forget about you (JinHui)
Because I still don't know you well that time eh
Not close .
Then ,Cecilia asked me to accompany her go and find her friend with her .
So , I went with her .
Then ?
We went up the stone .
Is with Joe Lee and Ben Neo .
Wth , Cecilia bitch sia .
Place her hand into Joe Lee shirt .
I was like , can't see .
Pretending .
Then awhile later ,
One person walked towards us .
Oh , I don't know who he is .
Until he walked away .
Cecilia told me he was JinHui .
I was super blurred .
Said ,
Who is JinHui ?
Then , I say nevermind .
Don't explain ><
I won't know de .
Then I continued to play my phone lo .
And ...Haish ,
Don't want continue already .
Gonna cry soon .
I keep refreshing those memories .
Anyway , I granted my wish .
That time third monthsary .
JinHui brought me to East Coast Park again .
He hugged me when I'm cold .
We even kissed .
Although that time my leg bleed , because of the sharp stone .
Aiya , Baby , only you know what happen .
Oops , sorry .
Called you baby again...