I wanted to delete those memories . But , not throwing away those gifts . I'm quite glad that I didn't give you anything except letters ! Or , if now you see it . Might be guilty or what ? I don't know ? I guess the letters have already been burned or thrown away by you already . I still remember , one of the letter I spent 4 and half an hours to write it to you . It's tiring to write so long and hand also very painful . But , I don't mind . Now those letters might be even tear into pieces already or even gone until don't know which part of the world already . Let that be my tiny little heart . Let you slash , tear , burn , throw and scratch it . Even lots more . I don't mind . As long as you're happy can le . I'm not happy , but , I have to . Cry got use meh ? You don't give a damn . 
I'm tried already .
Real tired of so much things around my world .
Damn it
Fuck my life .
I still have the two letters you gave me de .
I don't dare read anymore .
I know I would cry de .
It has " Love you forever ~ "
In the heartshape you drawn for me .
One piece have a beautiful rose .
Damn nice .
BABY !
I miss you .
I wanna die .
Because I guess long ago your heart already went to her ?
I don't know who the her .
It's just guess that you like other by looking and stalking you .
Don't let me know who is it .
Or she will die for sure .
It's a kind of jealousy . :'(
If I don't kill her ,
I'll kill myself .
Because like that you won't get hurt .
Because is I die also not the person you loved .
Let me die ~
带我走吧，带我去死吧~~~
I want to slit my wrist !
Eye , make me bleed again .
Make me go blind .
Pleaseeeeeeee .